NO.
NO NO NO NO NO. Please. This is not something you want to wish. Reconsider!!! Abuse memories never go away. They only fade and warp. They linger in your nightmares for years, waking you in fright in the middle of the night with distrust for everyone. You can try to forgive, try to make peace with the past, but you can’t completely forget, because part of you will never want to. Being abused makes you guarded at a very deep level unlike those who have not been abused, and you will always feel different from the lucky ones who were spared that experience as a kid. You might think that, maybe if you were abused more, that you might be stronger now, or something like that, but that kind of strength comes at the heavy cost of deep mental scars. And there are many more ways to find inner strength or discipline or whatever you think being abused would have affected you with, without all the paranoia, mistrust, and anger that abuse leaves people.

(Source: ugw-80lbs)